The worst day of my life?.... I think it is probably the worst day of my life...

sobz...

I think I've disappointed alot of people who have placed their hopes in me...

I really feel like dying...

I've just ruined my chance to prove myself.... and I've caused so much trouble to so many people...

I'm just a troublemaker...



why did i act like i could do it when i couldn't?....
why didn't i scream when I had the chance to?.....

now, I've made the biggest blunder of my whole life...

and I doubt anybody's going to forgive me for it...


*cries*


i hate myself... i hate my weak old stupid self...


what did i do to deserve this?...



thanks cheryl and sze bim for being there for me and encouragine me.... i know i'm an utter failure, a useless leader and a worthless being...
but you all still stood by me, even to the point of being dragged down and scolded also along with me when you all did nothing wrong...

you know, its in situations like these, when I'm eternally grateful for friends like you all...


i fell down the stairs...
i sprain my arm...
i cried till i have a splitting headache...

but... thats all i can do....

i'm remorseful beyond words...
i can only compensate with my time...



i went in... wanting to make it big, hoping i would be able to find my self-worth somewhere.... i end up ruining everything...

i've just about ruined my own future even...


nobody will trust with anything anymore....

*cries*